A Slice of Life

hai. It's been a while, but for me it's been a hell. days without u are days full of storm and rain in my heart. it sounds funny, like u have mentioned about it thru song but it's funnier when I miss you more than I love you. it has been four months without u here beside me, since the very last time I said good bye. It sounds like I left in you in fall but love you in winter, kak. well you know who you are since I mentioned "Kak" and I never call anyone with it before you. I've made my bed up and I need to sleep on it, I know I should. But, wondering why I gave us up easily made me have nightmare on it. You can talk anything you want, you can make joke about me, or you can brag to all your friends that you messed me up. It's true, no denial from me. I fucked up. I did. You can see my not-worth side, you can me being so stubborn for things I want. I do still fucking love you, kak. You never know how many nights I wish I could still talked and told you thing...

Bila merelakanmu adalah hal yang mudah untuk kulakukan, sudah pasti aku lakukan sejak awal.  Sudah pasti aku tidak akan memberi kesempatan, Sudah pasti aku tidak akan memaafkan, sudah pasti aku tidak akan melupakan, tapi.. kau memang b*j*ng*n  Kau buat aku jatuh dan jatuh berulang kali, entah sampai kapan Aku pun kesal.  Bila aku masih mau, akankah kau mau turut andil dalam keputusanku?  Rasa setiap kali aku melihatmu, adalah penyesalan bagiku.  Aku selalu merasa, aku bisa lebih baik seharusnya.  tapi aku gagal,  bagi mempertahan dan merelakan. 

 I do still searching for you in every soul I met.