A Slice of Life

I'm forever grateful for knowing him. Somebody that actively talking during motor-cycling. Somebody that randomly can talk about everything. Somebody who knows your value better than yourself. Somebody that interestingly attractive enough. Somebody that you always want to tell your stories everyday. Somebody that knowing your fire and let it be. Somebody that connected not only by look but also soul. Somebody that you would like to search in the middle of seven billion people out there. Somebody that passionately become story teller when it comes to their favorite activity. hiking. Somebody that knows where his home is. Somebody that have traveled anywhere just to find the meaning of home. Somebody that has fire on his mind and let his body release it. Somebody that great enough to blow my mind. Somebody that never win from arguing with me. Somebody that never let me win but always lose anyway. Somebody that smart enough but rather than show it off, he let everyone ...

Ditengah-tengah apa yang kita sebut perjuangan, kini kita melangkah berjauh-jauhan. Kau dengan egomu dan aku dengan inginku. Seringkali kita dihadapkan dengan situasi yang sulit, perlu akal dan hati yang bersih. Rumit ketika kita terlalu menanggapi serius semua omongan orang. Apa kata orang hanya perlu didengar bukan mentah-mentah ditelan. Proses ini mendewasakan sekaligus menggerus apa-apa yang buruk tertanam. Cukup menyenangkan mengetahui bahwa terakdang bodo amat selalu menjadi jawaban. Mungkin salahku yang terlalu perasa dulu membuatku terlalu mudah jatuh. Sudah kuyakini saat ini, tak ada yang bisa menjatuhkanku kecuali diriku sendiri. Orang bebas hendak menyampaikan suara mereka, kita juga berhak menutup telinga. Di umur baru ini, aku ingin lebih banyak memainkan peran dalam mendengar ketimbang menyuarakan, aku memilih menutup mulut dan membesarkan asa, rasa dan pendengaran. Itulah keputusanku. aku ingin lebih memperhatikan tanpa perlu mengambil peran. Aku lelah menjadi pusat perh...

Terkadang, apa yang kita rasa tak jauh beda dengan harapan yang sesungguhnya. Harapanlah yang terus membuat kita layak memperjuangkan rasa atau mimpi lama. Harapan harus terus dijaga bara apinya agar tak mudah padam dan mati. Harapan harus terus tetap hidup dan menjiwai pondasi-pondasi mimpi. Bila harapan pdam, maka matilah kehidupan. Yang membuat kita bangkit setelah ribuan kali dijatuhkan oleh keadaan adalah harapan. Teruslah hidup wahai harapan, kau ada untuk menjadi sebuah yang membuatku tak mudah menyerah. Jangan bosan untuk membangkitkan selera juangku, terkadang aku lemah dan lumpuh pada beberapa situasi tertentu. Tapi ketahuilah, karenamu wahai harapan. Aku yakin untuk melanjutkan segala angan dan mimpi yang terpendam. Tak jarang aku merasa hancur dan menyegerakan mengakhiri semua. Terlampau sering kehidupan ini melunturkan semangatku. Tapi kau wahai harapan selalu berada digaris terdepan menjawab semua keraguanku. Aku rasa aku perlu berterima kasih, karenamu aku masih berada d...

in 2019, i hope i can see more inspiring people and learn everything new. i want to join a lot of new events and take more chances. i need to do more in loving myself and taking care of it. i need to stop compare other's living with mine. i stop to being afraid to say "yes" to any chance. i truly need stop to being feeling not enough and feeling unwanted by the others. i will avoid negativity and any people who tries to bring me down. i will not fall into the same mistake as i did in 2018. i will be more happy and healthy in this year. i will keep my focus on good things only and try my best to make it real. i will feel pretty in any condition i am. like skin problem, they are such as acne, oily, not-so-white skin tone, or whatever that will happen to my face. i will decided that everything i have been going thru are moment i am to be real. every shits i will face in 2019 only make me become more stronger and unstable. i will make sure of it. i will not cry for the same ...

This post will be the last post about 2018. Yeay, a new year, a new me. So yesh, celebrate it. Well, that is not the point. Here i want to write how life-changing is the 2018. Start from, love. Yes, this year i got new experiences in love category, hahaha. I met a person who could teach me how love should be. How great the power of love so it is can be a stronger power. He taught and gave me a new kind of loves and i never regret by saying yes at the time he said he was in love with me. Start from love-letters, and many more memories i have been thru with him. But, right now, my path and his may not as one anymore. And maybe that is the best. So, yeah, thank you. In 2018, i also meet a people that are really inspire me, Mbak Bana, Mas Alvin, Mas Farrel, and lot more are people i adore in this year. Thank you for debating life i never regret by saying yes to join ACDC and NSDC. From law studies to the latest issues we have worked on together. I owe everything for every lesso...

i never beg people to stay in my life, if they want, they will. And if they don't, i know why; not everyone has a good taste.

This one post i will dedicate to my self and everyone who read this, and shouting this out to all people who have been in love with themselves and to they who still trying to love themselves. Fyi, i have been wanted to write about this sensitive topic one that have been long of time stuck on my mind. love yourself. The soul and the body. Inside and outside. Your perfection and your flaws. everything about u. For me, it is a thing that everyone must do. Why? we have given this body from God and one of a lot ways to feel grateful is by loving and taking care of your own. It is a long through ups-downs journey of mine to write this one. I can say like this, because i have been going through all that shits. Feeling insecure, not feeling wanted by the others, get cheated on so i was had my self-doubt, feeling not good enough for something or someone, not confidence enough for everything and lot of things like that. that's even worse. Here i want to tell all whoever read this one...