Life Update 2 months in 2020

Hellooo, internet people, been a while.

in th beginning of 2020 i've learned to let go things i don't deserve.

and yes i've fallen for wrong person again and again. that's sad cause i think we would last forever. i really think that way. but you know what, that's life. thru ups and downs. me and him can't face it together anymore. what makes me more dissapointed is the reason why we broke up. 

But i can respect his reason(still). but it's not something i can share in here. this could be really end of us. so yeah cheerish for more love-story to go. i still got a long of time to fall in love again and try to heal my pain. i have forever to find somebody that feels right. sure i have. 

but in the other side, i got lucky and blessed cause one or two things went well lately. i got so busy enough so i'm not really into my love-problem. wait, don't call it problem. instead of problem, learn is better word. i've learned so much from him and i never regret it. this is the first time i felt like i lost. but i also believe that God will never take anything from us without replace the better one. so, yeah. i'm living my yolo life right now. i've been free from toxic relation cause i know we are just hurting each other thru still being together. Thank God. issa sensitive issue for me, cause i don't really like my private life being exposed. but, i want u to learn one thing guys, is use your fire to burn off your ex. hahaha. fire means your sadness, all your cries and all the bad things he have said. use them to burn your ex off till he become ashes. best revenge. ain't abot too brag but like girls please knowning that u, yourself,your body and your mind deserve someone who can accept them not change them. find someone who is ready for u. 

what i can conclude from my love-learn is just find somebody who wants u at your best and worst. that's all. don't seek for perfect someone, don't look for smart and rich guy. instead of them, just love yourself even more and build your own empire. trust me girl, don't ever depend on men. bij please. we can stand by our own without them(except mydad and mybros) sooooo, this is about my love-learn part down. hahaha. that's sad but i think i'm gonna recover quickly. 

shout out to my ex, ain't really love u anyway.